"SHOT IN THE HEART...AND YOU'RE TO BLAME...

....YOU GIVE LOVE A BAD NAME!"

(Damn, I love Bon Jovi.)

Rob called me again the other night. I don't know what bug got up his ass, but he really wants a chance this time. He's sworn up and down that he's not seeing anyone, but I don't know. He and Stacy broke up. Then they tried giving it a second shot, but apparently, she didn't like the way things were going the second time around and she was tired of his bullshit. (I don't blame her.) And I'm not so sure I want a shot with Rob, especially after the whole runaround before and knowing what a complete asshole-jerk he can be.

I think all Rob ever wanted was just to get in my pants, that's what. He didn't want any sort of relationship...just sex.

However, meeting up with that Marc-guy today. Let's see how THAT goes. He seemed nice enough at the mall, but I don't know. I've just been so thoroughly disappointed by men lately that I'm about ready to shut myself down.

*tangent* You know what I've discovered about myself? I hate hate hate HATE being called "kiddo." I hate it. I'm not a kid, I'm a grown woman.

*tangent* Watched Beauty and the Beast yesterday. Now I'm all confused bigger than crap. Will obviously finish out my BA in English and take those teaching classes, but now confused as to whether I actually want to pursue going to school for law, or if I actually want to give art a second shot.

Great. Just great. I hate my life.

Marc called. He cancelled. Ooh, and here's why. His ex-girlfriend called and wants to get together with him and he thinks that's a little more important than jumping into something new.

I really fucking hate men right now. This is the SAME exact thing that happened to me a whole fucking MONTH ago. WHY does no one want to give me a chance?!

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well, THIS was interesting

lyons_roar52: hey there
hbh127: ? who is this?
lyons_roar52: it's marc
lyons_roar52: remember? we exchanged usernames
hbh127: oh yeah that's right. you've never IMed me before.
hbh127: for a minute, i thought you were another crazed loon online who just wants to talk about sex
lyons_roar52: ::ha ha::
hbh127: youre lucky, i was about to block you
lyons_roar52: i'm not just another horny idiot online, ya know
hbh127: i getcha
lyons_roar52: so, anyway, I'm sorry I cancelled tonight. it was rude of me
hbh127: meh
hbh127: it's okay, i'm used to it, i guess
hbh127: i was kind of looking forward to us hanging out, though. i don't get out of the house much anymore
lyons_roar52: i'm still sorry, though.
lyons_roar52: well, good news, though. my ex and i made up
hbh127: good for you
lyons_roar52: i can't tell if you're being sincere or not
hbh127: no, not really.
lyons_roar52: how come? i'm confused
hbh127: it's not reallty your fault. i'm just having a r3eally hard time finding a guy right now, and it's startign to really bother me
lyons_roar52: oh...:/
lyons_roar52: want to talk about it?
hbh127: i'll probably talk about it when i'm ready to, but not righ tnow.
lyons_roar52: anyway, i am sorry if i might have misled you or anything.
lyons_roar52: to be honest, i really do like talking to you though on the phone and all, and you do seem very nice and sweet
lyons_roar52: and i hope you and i can stay friends at least or become better friends because i do feel really bad that i ditched plans to hang out with a new friend tonight at the very least
hbh127: awww...well, i feel a little better at least
lyons_roar52: good. :)
lyons_roar52: b/c i tried calling earlier and you weren't there
hbh127: sorry about that. i figured i'd go on up to borders anyway to just fart around *ha ha*
lyons_roar52: without me?! :o
hbh127: you lost out, buddy *heh*
lyons_roar52: so what did ya do there?
hbh127: had some coffee and read jenna jameson's new boob
hbh127: *book (lol)
lyons_roar52: LMAO...oh, i would LOVE to read her boob
hbh127: *heh* typical guy :P
lyons_roar52: i saw that special about her on vh1 a few nights ago.
hbh127: i've seen it a few times
lyons_roar52: they repeat stuff a lot on vh1, dont they?
hbh127: yeah...that, and it's hard for me to go to bed when i get home from work. too wound up from my work day
hbh127: oh, did i tell you they're officially promoting me?
lyons_roar52: cool! raise?
hbh127: yeah, when i finish training
hbh127: it's going to be very trying, though. the supervisor training me isn't very patient. kind of a tight-ass about it, but oh well.

Yeah, kind of goes on from there. So, no animosity felt towards this guy. He at least apologized.

Still doesn't change the fact that my life is one cosmic joke.