a long time coming
Dec. 4th, 2006 04:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hollybrookeI was looking through some old LJ entried from 2003 till now, concerning all of the problems I had way back then. And it occured to me that some of the people who really stuck by my side through the last two years I don't give enough credit.
Yeah, mainly to Boojie. Thanks for the kind words and patience, man. *big hugs*
Also...and it's weird for me to admit to it, but especially after reading all of those posts, it has occured to me that my bustup with Zero was a long time coming, and had been building up for a while. I probably should've ended my friendship with him ages ago before letting it build up and get as bad as it did. I let him use me, I fell victim to his mindgames, and worst of all, I encouraged his behavior. I don't know how I fooled myself into thinking he was such a good friend when in reality, he really wasn't. I'm not blaming this all on him, but I can't believe I was just such a fool to keep denying it for as long as I did.
If he wants to keep continuing to blame me for pushing him away and all of that shit, let him. Maybe I did push him away, but I got tired of him treating me like crap. I don't regret one damn bit of it. I should've learned my lesson sooner.
Whatever. It'll all come to bite him in the ass someday.
Did I learn anything from all of this? Yes, I did. But it's in the form of a longer, more detailed response that I need to really think about.
Yeah, mainly to Boojie. Thanks for the kind words and patience, man. *big hugs*
Also...and it's weird for me to admit to it, but especially after reading all of those posts, it has occured to me that my bustup with Zero was a long time coming, and had been building up for a while. I probably should've ended my friendship with him ages ago before letting it build up and get as bad as it did. I let him use me, I fell victim to his mindgames, and worst of all, I encouraged his behavior. I don't know how I fooled myself into thinking he was such a good friend when in reality, he really wasn't. I'm not blaming this all on him, but I can't believe I was just such a fool to keep denying it for as long as I did.
If he wants to keep continuing to blame me for pushing him away and all of that shit, let him. Maybe I did push him away, but I got tired of him treating me like crap. I don't regret one damn bit of it. I should've learned my lesson sooner.
Whatever. It'll all come to bite him in the ass someday.
Did I learn anything from all of this? Yes, I did. But it's in the form of a longer, more detailed response that I need to really think about.
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Date: 2006-12-04 11:24 pm (UTC)Thanx babe.
Date: 2006-12-05 01:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-12-05 06:57 am (UTC)