hollybrooke | not a fucking word for months, but a stupid joke?

I don't understand Zero at all. If he was all so concerned about staying friends, he would've made more of an effort to bridge the fucking gap. He would've called. He would've sent me an email. But no. I go make a MySpace post about what a shitty day I've had in Gary and the school parking lot, and he responds with a stupid joke about Deep River Waterpark. No "Sorry you had a shitty day and your shoes got wet and you nearly got flooded in at IUN." A stupid joke. Like it makes me feel better. Uh, no it didn't.

He knows I'm upset with him. I've told him why I'm upset with him. I don't know if he feels bad about it or not (Feel bad about it? Hell no, he's Zero Phoenix, pompous egomaniac-asshole extraordinare! Why should he feel bad?), and I don't feel I should have to apologize for why I've been freezing him out and not talking to him and up and quitting Rocky the way I did. He knows why. I shouldn't have ti spell it out for him because we've been through this before. He wanted to mess around with me and lead me on the way he did, then not even consider a chance with me, drop it all for Kristen (AGAIN) and totally not even introduce her to me or anything once she joined cast (probably because he knew I'd get pissed at him for pulling this crap again). It's like rubbing salt in the wound. Friends don't treat each other like that.

It's really ironic because I was thinking about the whole stupid situation and actually contemplating trying to get in touch with him and burying the hatchet (AGAIN)...and I really don't feel like he deserves it. I don't want to apologize. I shouldn't have to apologize. I want an apology from him. But I know that'll never happen. Is this a friendship that can be saved? In my opinion....maybe. Probably not, I should know better. But he'd have to quit being such an asshole and start respecting me as a person a little more.