I think I have the right to be angry
Jul. 5th, 2006 07:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hollybrookeI don't talk about it much on my LiveJournal, but I feel it has to be addressed.
My friendship with Zero has gone down the shitter, & I don't want to hold myself responsible...well, maybe I am partially to blame, because it's stupid to let his girlfriend get in the way of it, but SHEESH. This is the same girlfriend he gave me the shaft for after New York. I feel like he's insulted me, hurt me, led me on, & just to alienate me. Then he has the balls to tell me I've changed.
Well, yeah. I have changed. I got tired of dealing with the crap that life throws my way. I work my butt off for a little more than slave wages, & I'm getting ready to further my education. I feel like I've become way more assertive this year that I have been in the past, and yet he makes me feel like I'm stupid, he makes me feel like my opinion doesn't matter, he makes me feel like I'm not worth the time of day. So yeah, I think I have the right to be angry. I've been dealing with a shitload of personal problems, I don't get a shoulder I can lean on, I have to do a lot of it on my own...
What I have been told in the past is that I have the right to not let anyone make me feel inferior, & Zero does that. I don't know if it's intentional, or if it's just a case of "open mouth, insert foot" with no apology, but I don't appreciate it.
So I'm wondering if I should just cut my losses & give up on this "friendship" if he's just going to continue making me feel like crap.
My friendship with Zero has gone down the shitter, & I don't want to hold myself responsible...well, maybe I am partially to blame, because it's stupid to let his girlfriend get in the way of it, but SHEESH. This is the same girlfriend he gave me the shaft for after New York. I feel like he's insulted me, hurt me, led me on, & just to alienate me. Then he has the balls to tell me I've changed.
Well, yeah. I have changed. I got tired of dealing with the crap that life throws my way. I work my butt off for a little more than slave wages, & I'm getting ready to further my education. I feel like I've become way more assertive this year that I have been in the past, and yet he makes me feel like I'm stupid, he makes me feel like my opinion doesn't matter, he makes me feel like I'm not worth the time of day. So yeah, I think I have the right to be angry. I've been dealing with a shitload of personal problems, I don't get a shoulder I can lean on, I have to do a lot of it on my own...
What I have been told in the past is that I have the right to not let anyone make me feel inferior, & Zero does that. I don't know if it's intentional, or if it's just a case of "open mouth, insert foot" with no apology, but I don't appreciate it.
So I'm wondering if I should just cut my losses & give up on this "friendship" if he's just going to continue making me feel like crap.
