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hollybrookeI've been thinking more whether I want to go to the ten year reunion or not, and it makes me all sorts of angry. On one hand, it'd be kind of cool to go and see how fat the asshole jocks got, or how ugly the preppy snobs got (and how many kids they've pushed out by now), and it'd be kind of fun to just mess with people and pull a Romy and Michele, make up some sort of crazy embellishment about how great and successful I am. But you know, I'm not TOO ashamed to admit that I'm just a grocery store cashier. My excuse? "I'm lucky I have a job with the way the economy is and the unemployment rates are looking. It pays my bills." And frankly, it's the truth.
But on the other hand, I don't think any of my high school friends will be there. I already know Ami and Matt aren't going; they'll be back in town around that time, but mainly because Zoe's old enough to bring on a trip to see family. I was thinking, "Well, maybe if Melissa Hines is going..." But you know what? She and I kind of drifted apart during high school and she didn't do anything to keep in touch with me after we graduated. Yeah, she asked me for a friend request on Facebook not too long ago, but still....
Which brings me to what exactly makes me angry. Why the hell is it that certain people that I barely knew and wasn't even friends with back then looking me up on MySpace and Facebook and asking me for a goddamned friend request? Why do I even accept? And most importantly, why don't they do jack shit to talk to me through IM or whatever in an attempt to get to know me better or, you know, be friendly?!
It's not like I can reminisce about the "good old times" we all had back then because no one ever wanted to include me in anything back then! All I did was study, read, draw, do stuff for choir and the drama department and for the school newspaper. No one ever wanted me to be in their group for group projects. Like I've said, nearly all of my friends were a grade above me or a grade below me (like Carol and Nichole and Colie and Karen and everyone else). Guys made fun of me behind my back; I had NO date for either homecoming or prom. I went to prom BY MYSELF. No one offered me to come with their groups of friends. So why should I go to this reunion for everyone to just go back to ignoring me and/or trying to rile me up like they did back then?
Besides, Ami and Matt are having a BBQ at Ami's mom's place. And I can FINALLY meet Zoe. :)
But on the other hand, I don't think any of my high school friends will be there. I already know Ami and Matt aren't going; they'll be back in town around that time, but mainly because Zoe's old enough to bring on a trip to see family. I was thinking, "Well, maybe if Melissa Hines is going..." But you know what? She and I kind of drifted apart during high school and she didn't do anything to keep in touch with me after we graduated. Yeah, she asked me for a friend request on Facebook not too long ago, but still....
Which brings me to what exactly makes me angry. Why the hell is it that certain people that I barely knew and wasn't even friends with back then looking me up on MySpace and Facebook and asking me for a goddamned friend request? Why do I even accept? And most importantly, why don't they do jack shit to talk to me through IM or whatever in an attempt to get to know me better or, you know, be friendly?!
It's not like I can reminisce about the "good old times" we all had back then because no one ever wanted to include me in anything back then! All I did was study, read, draw, do stuff for choir and the drama department and for the school newspaper. No one ever wanted me to be in their group for group projects. Like I've said, nearly all of my friends were a grade above me or a grade below me (like Carol and Nichole and Colie and Karen and everyone else). Guys made fun of me behind my back; I had NO date for either homecoming or prom. I went to prom BY MYSELF. No one offered me to come with their groups of friends. So why should I go to this reunion for everyone to just go back to ignoring me and/or trying to rile me up like they did back then?
Besides, Ami and Matt are having a BBQ at Ami's mom's place. And I can FINALLY meet Zoe. :)
