and now, the randomness of it all!
Apr. 6th, 2008 07:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hollybrooke....Sometimes when I'm on MySpace and I see Zero's profile on a mutual friend's friendlist, I contemplate clicking on the link and lurking on his profile. You know, to see what that loser's been doing with his life since Rocky Horror ended, if he's still with that girlfriend he gave me the shaft for (and if she was worth it)...you know, just out of curiosity.
Then I catch myself, and I think, "Why am I even interested? He was nothing but a toxic jackass to me, and he's nothing to me now." And I move along.
*tangent* Being on audit is STILL a damn joke. Getting me all worked up over that $150 yesterday, and it was because of that suspended order. WTF?!
*tangent* Okay...let's talk about sex. (And this WILL be put behind a cut for the sake of privacy. Read if you want to, and give me sincere advice if you'd like.)
I haven't been sexually active for a very long time. Hell, even during the Rocky Horror years, I wasn't getting any. I guess you can say I've been celibate. Not necessarily by choice, but mainly because I just haven't put in much effort into "mating" or "dating" in the last four or so years. I've just had other things on my mind. But...that's changed. I'm probably very out of the loop sexually, and I'm a little...actually, VERY scared that when the time comes around, I'm just going to be a big mess and totally embarrass myself. I don't know what to do. I literally feel "like a virgin." A big, sex-starved virgin.
Then I catch myself, and I think, "Why am I even interested? He was nothing but a toxic jackass to me, and he's nothing to me now." And I move along.
*tangent* Being on audit is STILL a damn joke. Getting me all worked up over that $150 yesterday, and it was because of that suspended order. WTF?!
*tangent* Okay...let's talk about sex. (And this WILL be put behind a cut for the sake of privacy. Read if you want to, and give me sincere advice if you'd like.)
I haven't been sexually active for a very long time. Hell, even during the Rocky Horror years, I wasn't getting any. I guess you can say I've been celibate. Not necessarily by choice, but mainly because I just haven't put in much effort into "mating" or "dating" in the last four or so years. I've just had other things on my mind. But...that's changed. I'm probably very out of the loop sexually, and I'm a little...actually, VERY scared that when the time comes around, I'm just going to be a big mess and totally embarrass myself. I don't know what to do. I literally feel "like a virgin." A big, sex-starved virgin.
