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Jan. 2nd, 2004 11:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hollybrookeI talked to Mike tonight. Yay, it's been the week where Holly catches up with friends she hasn't heard from in ages. He asked if I was going to come to Paul and Hilary's wedding. I explained that a reason why was because...well, I don't think my car will survive a drive all that way down to southern Indiana, for one thing. But I had to be honest with him, that I had a feeling Dan would be bringing Becky with, and while I'm trying to suck it up and not be such a shit about meeting her...I just don't want to deal with the two of them at a WEDDING, of all places. It'd be good to see them all again (Mike and Tiff and Brandon and Paul and Hilary), but at the risk of hurting myself inside just to see my EX-BOYFRIEND getting all intimate with his new girlfriend? At a wedding?! FUCK NO.
You know, Tiffany inadvertently asking Dan how his sex life with Becky was going right in front of me was one thing. This would be like rubbing salt in the would: "I have a better sex life and a better sense of closeness and intimacy than I ever did with you, and I'm going to be with this girl forever and ever because she's anxious to get married and start a family someday, but you're still special to me." Fine then. Get hitched, start a family, and move to split-level-home suburbia with your mini-van. Let your wife try to juggle her wifely duties with being a doting mother AND holding down a job that she spent good college years. You will neglect your kids in the process and spoil them nuts trying to compensate for it as they get older. Not like I care one goddamned bit. You're only doing all of this with the man that I actually, for the first time in my life, opened up my heart to only to discover that he'd trample all over it.
How the hell do I get myself into these situations?
STOP RIGHT THERE!!! No wallowing in misery over stupid ex boyfriend. Healing period is over. Time to start mackin' on the guys again and be happy with my single-and-fabulous self. *hugs self* I LOVE ME!!
You know, Tiffany inadvertently asking Dan how his sex life with Becky was going right in front of me was one thing. This would be like rubbing salt in the would: "I have a better sex life and a better sense of closeness and intimacy than I ever did with you, and I'm going to be with this girl forever and ever because she's anxious to get married and start a family someday, but you're still special to me." Fine then. Get hitched, start a family, and move to split-level-home suburbia with your mini-van. Let your wife try to juggle her wifely duties with being a doting mother AND holding down a job that she spent good college years. You will neglect your kids in the process and spoil them nuts trying to compensate for it as they get older. Not like I care one goddamned bit. You're only doing all of this with the man that I actually, for the first time in my life, opened up my heart to only to discover that he'd trample all over it.
How the hell do I get myself into these situations?
STOP RIGHT THERE!!! No wallowing in misery over stupid ex boyfriend. Healing period is over. Time to start mackin' on the guys again and be happy with my single-and-fabulous self. *hugs self* I LOVE ME!!
