hollybrooke: (don't touch me!)
hollybrooke ([personal profile] hollybrooke) wrote2007-12-13 12:00 pm
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Yeah, well, YOUR face.

Okay, let's put it this way. I can handle constructive criticism. If I'm not doing something right at work, I just need to be let known and I'll correct it. But if you so much as insult the way I look and offer me unsolicited advice as to how to fix it....

I really shouldn't let it bother me...I really shouldn't. She just came up to me and said, "You need to quit picking at your face."

...Did she SPOT me picking at my face? Do I look like I pick at my face? Okay, at the ripe old age of 27, I GET IT. I HAVE ACNE PROBLEMS. I CAN'T HELP IT. I'm not lucky like some people are to be blessed with naturally clear skin. I've tried every treatment you can think of, I've washed my face with every acne fad product. Tetracycline didn't help. Minocycline didn't help. I tried using birth control to help get my horomones in check, but it just made my problems worse. ProActiv...I just built a tolerance to it after a month and the acne still came back. The only thing I haven't tried yet at this point is Accutane, and I refuse to because I would like to have a kid someday, and I have enough problems to deal with before taking Accutane to potentially make me depressed enough to kill myself. (Hello, Jonathan Brandis?) It's not as bad as it was when I was a teenager, but my face still has acne scarring that I just can't help (and can't afford to take care of right now...maybe if I got paid more at this job....

And you know, it's like when that girl Marikate was still working as a UC. Some customer complained that she "had an odor" to her, and she got a talking-to about it. Since when did this job turn into HIGH SCHOOl, people? And she got disciplined for it? You know, we all do what we can about our personal hygiene, and it still doesn't seem to be good enough for some people. I felt bad for Marikate when she told me about that; it just seemed like they were singling her out right away for some stupid reason.

You know, I remember way back in middle school when people used to tease me with the "Does your face hurt? Well, it's KILLING me!" and I absolutely hated that. I remember someone actually said that to me when I was in middle school and I just went off on them. "Yeah, my face DOES hurt. I can't help it that it hurts. It hurts because I do wash and I put acne medication on to make the pimples go away, and it's so bad that it really does physically hurt. So yeah, thanks for trying to make fun of me because you really hurt my feelings even more there."

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